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Sekian lama berpisah akhirnya bertemu (dipetik dr lagu Jamal Abdillah)~

berpisah dan bertemu!!?? bertemu dgn siape?? dgn blog ini laaa.. i miss this blog so muchy muchy (gaya gedik wanita).. hahaha.. Well ape bole bwat, the GAYS blog telah menjadi primary blog.. my housemate bkannye nak update..

Well they are not in this kind of thing, the blogging part.. I hate it when they said the blog was all mine alone.. I gave them the id and password but they still would not want to update, so i guess it is mine all alone.. hurmmm

Enough!!!! NOW is New YEAR.. Lets Talk about Azam Baru.. hehehe

So what is your Azam Baru..???? bkn azri azam yek.. sian ko Ayie, stiap kali new yr nama bapak ko sure naik.. hahaha

My Azam Baru or New Year Resolution:

1) Datang 80% lectures and tutorial sbb last sem dtg less than 60%
2) Dptkan WAM of 80 above sbb WAM dh start kire tuk 2nd yr onwards and nak kejar 1st class honour
3) Ape2 Math lpas ni kna HD(Higher Distinction).. X puas ati klu x dpt
4) Kurangkan mencarut.. ni paling payah skali.. huhu

Hehehe.. This is my Azam Baru.. Kna lebih rajin and score dgn seronoknye.. YessssZarrrrr

Things have been very tough especially this week.. With two tests, online quizzes, three group projects, super-fast syllabus, lecture clashes, and workshop at the city, I feel very exhausted and i’m psychologically and mentally down..

Yesterday, I thought of dropping one subject because I personally felt that I couldn’t cope the pressure of too much work.. But unfortunately, the subject is not offered during summer session..

Today, I had calculus test and I felt very very very disappointed because I couldn’t answer the first question which worth 2 marks.. Well, I wanted to get 10 for all tests, but……………… I got 83 for math in last semester and I was disappointed because I couldn’t get above 85 which is the higher distinction grade.. Its not that i’m not bersyukur or something.. you know, when you don’t get what you want, you will feel sad and frustrated….

Anyway, tomorrow I have to go to city for design workshop and I need to be there at 8 am.. Then, I have to rush back to the university to take mechanics test.. SIGH!! I am exhausted and its only 4 weeks.. I got 10 weeks left.. Almighty God, pls help me.. give me will and strength……

New semester/session has just started.. It is going to be a new journey of busy-ness and hectic-ness.. wahahahahaha.. Anyway, I want to congratulate myself, and my housemate - stuart and syamil for getting excellent result in previous session; and also to everyone out there who managed to achieve targets and ambitions.. As long as we work hard and have faith in Allah, insyaAllah we will get what we wanted..

Time is short.. Another one and a half month to go before final xm.. I am very lazy and that is a big problem that i need to overcome.. Visual Basic is boring and i’m not into it.. I need help but i dont seek for any.. I hope that i can get distiction since higher distinction is a no for me.. Maths is fairly easy from my perspective.. I think higher distinction is within my grasp.. Design subject depends on the team.. distinction or maybe higher is possible..

On the other hand, Physics is unpredictble.. My target is distinction. but it is tough.. From what i heard, the average of midterm xm last yr was 22% with 80% students failed.. WTH!!!! Physics is the toughest subject, tougher than AUSMAT.. It is frustrating when u worked really hard but u couldn’t get a good result.. The xm was totally different than quizzes.. Anyway, I am still in the fairy land, relaxing and enjoying my life here.. I hope that i can get the engine started and accelerate at the maximum speed.. InsyaAllah.. I will make myself and my family proud.. This is for me and everyone.. Be respected and Be the Best !! YEAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. byebye

Wassalam~

darnn…!! Mid term physics is coming up next week.. its going to be very tough.. last yr, 60 or 80% of students got fail.. durhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! what will i get??!!

Well… It is not my fault for skipping classes especially Computing for Engineering and Physics class.. From my own perspective, if i dont understand anything in the lecture and sleeping during lecture, then it is better for me to skip class and learn on my own. The important thing is the result.. As long as i get a good result in quizzes, test and exams, then i should stick with my way of learning.. That is what i believe for now and i will always try to improve my performance in every subject..

Salam and hye everyone~ It has been a while since the last time I updated this blog. I have been very busy lately and i am just received the internet connection.. I hope u guys understand.. Well well well.. hurmmm.. durhhh.. i do not know what to write.. My big brain doesn’t work.. wth!! OK.. As far as i can remember, I do not share any of my experience going to Australia yet.. So i guess i should write one..

Just to make it short and brief: At KLIA, I was the last to show up in the MARA’s group and the officers were like ermm kinda angry. But overall, things went very well. Then during the flight, it was my 1st time praying(solat) inside the airplane. It was great and a hell of memorable experience as a muslim. After arrived at Sydney, Shafiq(Stuart)’s uncle took us to stay at his house. It was kinda shocking when he said he did not have sejadah for solat. I think maybe it is because he has stayed in Australia for about 20 yrs, he has lost his Islamic value inside him. However, he was very friendly and he helped us a lot especially regarding our 5 star apartment and to start our life in oversea.

The apartment was terrific and still is. It has 2 rooms, 2 big bathrooms, a large hall, a garage and a swimming pool plus the security is very high. The disadvantage is that it is unfurnished, so we need to figure out on how and where to get the cheapest furniture for our house. Now we have everything and we do not need to worry about anything regarding the house. Until now, I have visited the Featherdale Wildlife which is full with rare animals such as kangaroos, koalas and some others which i cant remember. I also have visited the Sydney Opera house on the 1st week and had a tour in Sydney city. Last week we went to the Bondi Beach to have some fun and looking for topless chicks.. MasyaAllah to those who had this intention. well i did not… hehe..

This Sunday our seniors (the best and most friendly seniors = Bun and Awe) will be organizing a barbeque party at Maroubra Beach and we will going to have fun bebeh!! =).. And off course about studying, it is getting tougher but i will cope with it. I got 9/10 for my maths and physics quiz. Well, the maths was easy but due to carelessness, the result was not perfect.. For the physics, it was HELL tough but well.. what can i say.. i am good.. hahaha.. HEYYY GUYS!! I want to remember all of you that UNSW engineering school is the 1st in Aussie and top 20 in the world!!!! It is the BEST!! haha….. But the fucking thing is that the exam is like HELL and the seniors all had failed in their previous yrs especially in computing. Anyway, I believe as long as i am discipline enough and always tawakkal, I will surely able to overcome the obstacle ahead. InsyaAllah..

Thats all for now, i will update at least once a week.. Pls give your comment.. Wassalam~

Hrmmm.. looks like my hair now is full with grey hair@white hair aka uban.. durhhh.. its getting worst.. saye blom tua tp rambut sudah beruban lebih byk dr ayah saye.. OH NOO!! what can i do haaa?? should i colour my hair?? and what do people think when they see me?? LOL

"To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day, To the last syllable of recorded time; And all our yesterdays have lighted fools… erhmm.. ni waktu bile ek??? x ingat.. jap2 form 2?? or form 3?? when was it?? i can’t remember!! duhhhh.. heh.. well i think most students do not like literature.. i ask every single one of them, they said "ak x paham satu benda pun", "bosannnnye literature" and so on..

I think many of said that before when we were teenagers.. hehe.. well, we can’t deny the fact that literature is boring but when u look at it and try to imagine, it is wonderfulll.. just like our life - colourful and wonderful.. we used to say "susahnye hidup", "susahnye blaja", "menyampah betul la" and many others.. but look what have we achieved.. something special right?!!

Like me, i cried when i looked back at my past.. it is memorable and special.. from small kid to a teenager and now we are in transition to become an adult.. i know some of us scared and said "aku dh dewasa, takutnye".. and they want go back to the past and become a kid eating ice-cream and let their parents take care of them.. maybe we should be scared because we must be more responsible with our life when we are adults.. we can’t depend on our parents anymore, maybe a bit.. some of us will study oversea and they will live on their own until the age of 24 and when they come back, they are adult.. a real adult with their own life.. a future which may be different from the past….

Are we ready for it?? are you ready??? don’t you want to know the future?? don’t you want to know what you will be?? do you or you don’t?? past history taught us on how to be ourself, a golden experience that anybody in this world can never buy.. now, our future is waiting for us… lets go and good luck!!!!!

=)

Do you believe in miracles?? because miracles do happen..

aku mungkin percayakan miracles dlm hidup tapi aku lebih percayakan God’s power..

ermm.. tiap kali aku terasa malas menunaikan solat, aku akan cuba memikirkan segala kejaiban(miracles) yg pernah berlaku kepada aku sebelum ni.. aku bukanlah jenis manusia yg suka pandang benda yg lepas.. bg aku, yg lepas biarlah lepas.. sejarah hidup adalah pengalaman dan pengajaran tp masa depan adalah lebih penting..

antara kejaiban yg akan aku pikirkan ialah macamana la org macam aku nih boleh pergi oversea and dpt offer extra.. aku nyer ko-kurikulum (betol ke eja??) dahla fail, siap ade cop x aktif.. tp aku bukanla bodoh nak bawak pegi interview kertas tuh.. kalau ko-ko x aktif, maksudnya ape2 sijil lain pun xde..lainla kalau compare dgn budak2 asrama penuh yg slalunye dgn sijil tebal.. asalla sijil diorang byk sangat.. aku pun x pahamm.. haha.. ntah ape la yg aku gebang dulu sampai laki n pompuan yg interview tu impress sgt.. so, bila aku ingat balik macamana aku boleh dpt offer blaja luar negara, aku akan ingat bahawa Allah Maha Berkuasa.. Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang.. kekadang, kita mungkin serba kekurangan tp kita boleh berjaya lebih dr orang lain dengan berbekalkan usaha dan tawakkal..

selain itu, aku akan pasti ingat kertas chemistry final Yr 11 dimana aku start dr belakang ke depan dan ntah macamana aku x nmpk soklan 1 n 2.. bila nak jwb dh terlewat.. sama juga dgn exam IELTS yg memang buat aku menangis semasa solat.. exam IELTS la bagi aku yg paling aku akan ingat sampai aku mati.. Allah nak tunjuk kat aku kekuasaan-Nya.. mmg aku x silap yg text 1 ade 2 pg je untuk Reading Exam.. yg 3rd page blank(kosong) and 4th pg soklan.. bila aku keluar mkn depan alam sentral dgn wong n syamil mlm tu, aku terkejut bila diorang kate ade text 1 ade 3 page.. and diorang discuss jwp yg aku x tawu.. bagi aku 3rd page mmg xde.. blank page.. sbb tu la aku x dpt jawab lebih 10 soklan tuk text 1.. aku main letak jwp aku sendiri and yakin betul.. bila aku bagitaw mak aku, dia kate apelah dosa aku, apelah aku buat sampai jadi macam tu.. mmg lepas tu aku nangis semasa solat malam.. mmg menakutkan.. aku tiap2 hari doa supaya IELTS aku lepas, dan akhirnya reading aku dpt 6.5.. mmg aku bersyukur.. bila kita ditunjukkan kekuasaan-Nya, betapa hebat pun diri kita, kita akan tetap tewas dan tunduk..

sbnrnya byk benda yg berlaku dalam hidup aku.. aku berjaya dgn cemerlang semasa sekolah rendah, the best waktu skolah agama, kurang sket cemerlang semasa skolah menengah.. and skrg berjaya dgn sedikit cemerlang dlm program AUSMAT.. aku yakin mereka di luar sana pernah experience benda2 yg can be considered ‘miracles’.. itu bukanlah nasib, tp sebenranya kuasa Allh.. samala dgn TER yg plajar AUSMAT baru dpt.. kekadang diorang rasa x boleh fly tp akhirnya diorang berjaya.. bila kita mengingati kuasa Tuhan, barulah kita sedar yg kita ni sbnrnya lemah.. yg penting skali ialah kita perlu usaha bersungguh-sungguh dan bykkan bertawakkal.. insyaAllah kita akan berjaya..

-wassalam-